i absolutly hate being me, i absolutly hate living and i absolutly hate the fact that i will never ever have what i want.
Lonliness is the worst feeling someone could ever feel.
If there is any god please let me die today, i am just suffering here and its not fair. If a few months of happiness is all i get i dnt want to live. Im praying to a god i dont believe in to kill me today.
I decided not t use this for quite some time now because i was happy i actually felt like a human and actually felt some kind of happiness and love in my life but now that’s all gone so im back to be miserable again, and i have never felt worse id rather be abused again than deal with this shit honestly.
Happy birthday to my daddy and my number one hero i love you so much
I know val really likes me but sometimes i wish she loved me. I know im unlovable and im not the most attractive, smart or anything good person but i really love her and i hope that she tells me she loves me soon..i love telling her i love her even if it breaks my heart everytime i say it and she doesnt say it back.
My dads stupid dog attacked my cat today and i went upstairs in my room to see peanut bleeding from the neck in a corner crying, my poor baby had to get stiches and almost died because of that dog! GRRRR.