Maybe if i just lay here and practice holding my breath ill eventually build up the tolerance to stay calm when i cant breath and then just hold my breath till i die, sounds like a plan to me.
so im trying to be in a good mood today and ive decided its just impossible.
i dont feel well, i feel more alone today than i have in weeks, i say and do stupid things, and i kinda wish someone would just punch me in the face repeatedly.
feeling super depressed.
My head hurts so much it feels like someone is bashing my head against the wall and then taking an ice pick to my eyes, especilly the left one i better not be getting pink eye again, i swear i get pink eye every few months it sucks..oh and my stomachs killing me but my anxiety is taking over my whole mind and therefore i cant d0 anything too help myself except take the 1 advil i found in my pocket..
So i walk into the living room cause i hear my dad hysterically laughing to catch him smoking out of my bong hysterically laughing at this….lol
soo i had a really bad day today, i went to my therapist and we talked about some touchy subjects and i felt so uncomofrtable i started too throw up and then i had to go to the urologist and thats just an uncomfortable situation no matter what..and then i had to tell val something really personal about me.
im hoping my dad goes away this weekend i really wanna see val
Well i have the house to myself all day i have no idea what to do lol
val is working and then having a party with her mom later just my luck lol